天秤ちゃん

君はだれ？

2006-05-07T02:54:00.000-07:00

双子の話。二人の双子がすごく可愛かったですよ～

Ericia

2006-01-09T16:27:00.000-08:00

这个小妹妹太可爱了，
在班上完全静不下来。
和我的Natalie势均力敌。

一听我说要罚人跑两圈，
她更兴奋。
“老师，老师，罚我吧！
跑哪里？跑哪里？”

对了，我是O型的人，
当我吐血吐到奄奄一息时，
请拔刀相助。

精彩

2006-01-03T04:18:00.000-08:00

二零零六年真的真的真的很精彩。
教什么呢？
小一华文与好公民
小二好公民
小四华文与好公民
小五好公民
小五高级华文
小六高级华文
小五音乐
小六保健

四个字：喜出望外！！！

蝋燭サービス

2005-12-23T17:46:00.000-08:00

きょうダビデの町で、あなたがたのために、救い主がお生まれになりました。この方こそ主キリストです。
ルカ 2:11

初めてのお祝い
小雨が綺麗だった......

砸杂茶

2005-11-19T15:45:00.000-08:00

起立我最行！
小一班的蒙古小孩艾力克十分可爱。（对，不用怀疑，是可怜
没人爱。）伊伊啊啊了一整年，在双语一窍不通的情况下，他
在上华文课时最开心的时候就是听到“起立”的时候。
他的英语还不到家，当他问我能不能上厕所时，也是以伊伊啊啊
开头，toilet please结尾。哈哈。

经典
颁奖礼那天，小五班的安然又发作了。“老师老师，你给我个奖
行不行？”“行！你讲话最行，颁个大奖给你咯！”
后来，他拿出扑克牌，自夸是赌圣。我禁不住射了一句过去：
“同学们，你们班上有个赌圣，逢赌必输，什么都不剩！”
看来，我是个坏老师。

心血来潮
和小四班一起看新诗，有感而发：

诗名「我不爱你」

我很高兴
不会再看到你
爱上你之后，我还是很讨厌
你

You Bring Out The Worst In Me

2005-08-24T23:45:00.000-07:00

不想上课的立刻出去，这里不欢迎你。

你知道吗？每次看到你的字体，我都以为新加坡发生了地震。

请不想回家的人继续说话。

你再不放下扫把，待会儿休息时侯请把教员室打扫干净。

请那些来学校骂粗话、打架的去找其他的老师上课，我是来教书的。

Promises to Keep

2005-08-08T18:33:00.000-07:00

By Kris Hamm Rose

I'm a teacher. But there are days, like today, when I wonder why. It's been a tough day. The results of an English quiz taken by my fifth-graders were dismal. Despite my best efforts, the world of pronouns remains a mystery to them. How I wish there is a way to make the study of our language as exciting as a computer game, so the glazed looks would not appear in their eyes at the mention of the word "grammar."
I wanted to spend my lunch period thinking of a way to enrich the next day's lesson, but a child became sick and needed me to gather her assignments while she waited for her mother. It took longer than I thought so there wasn't time for lunch. Then an argument broke out at recess. Angry boys needed to be calmed and hurt feelings soothed before we could return to the classroom. We were all emotionally spent and found it hard to return to history books and Revolutionary War battles.
Hunger had given me a nagging headache, lingering long after the last child filed out for car pool. Now, hours later as I drive home, rubbing aching temples, I remember my husband's words, delivered like a lecture, after other days like this. "Why don't you quit? You'd probably make more money doing something else, and you wouldn't have papers to grade every night."
This late afternoon, I'm considering the wisdom of his words. I have a stack of papers to grade, which I promised my fifth-graders I would return tomorrow. But tonight a friend, whom I haven't seen in a year, is visiting from Belgium, and I told her I would keep this evening free.
Frustration builds as traffic slows, and I realize it's rush hour. No matter how hard I try, I can't seem to get out of my classroom ahead of the traffic. The world of my profession, a world filled with children, requires so much time. After school today, we had a faculty meeting. Events had to be planned, problems solved, new ideas discussed. So many details to remember. Just when I thought my day was over, a student peeked her head into the classroom to remind me I had promised to help her with a difficult assignment. The building was empty when I returned her to her waiting mother and wearily walked to my car.
Sitting in traffic threaded behind a distant stoplight, it's hard not to replay the day and revisit the tension. I turn up the air conditioner, hoping the coolness will ease my frustration and aching head. The last notes of a familiar melody are interrupted by news from the real world. Stock prices are down. Crime is up. The sound of gunfire fills the car as a broadcaster reveals the horror of life in a distant country. A strained voice reports the body of a local youngster, missing for weeks, has been identified. Click. Too much real world has invaded my space.
This missing child has had a profound effect on my fifth-graders. Every morning since she was first reported missing, my children have discussed news reports about her and prayed for her safe return.
Their concern was not only for her and her family but also for themselves. After all, she was one of them. A child believing herself to be safe and secure in her own neighborhood. My students, only one scant year younger than the tragic victim, wondered, "If it happened to her, could it happen to me?" Their thoughts and fears mirrored my own as I tried to find the right words to calm anxieties hoisted upon them by a world seemingly gone mad. There were no easy answers to quiet their apprehensions. How could I help them make sense out of senseless things and restore security to the small world of our classroom?
My children, ever wise with the innocence of youth, had found the answer themselves. They got out their pencils, markers and Crayolas and made cards. Cards written with words of compassion and love for a mother and father they didn't know. Cards that spoke of faith and the promise of peace. Cards adorned with ruby red hearts, golden crosses, spring flowers and rosy-cheeked angels. No grammar book, no lesson, could ever teach the beauty of the thoughts drawn and expressed by these children. Their cards, intended to comfort others, comforted the children themselves by leading them past the anxiety, back into the world of security that should be theirs.
As I sit in my car inching through the fumes of evening rush hour, I reflect on the strength of my students as they sought to right their world in the one way that made sense to them. I find myself smiling in spite of the heat, the traffic and the pile of ungraded tests. The rules of grammar might not have been learned today, but something bigger and better happened in my classroom. I just didn't recognize it at the time.
And then I remember. I remember why I'm still teaching. It's the children. They're more important than a lifetime filled with quiet evenings and more valuable than a pocket filled with money. The world of noise, pronouns, recess and homework is my world. My classroom, a child-filled world of discovery, of kindness and of caring is the real world. And I'm so lucky to be in it.
The traffic clears and I move past the stoplight, into the shady streets of my neighborhood. I'm glad to be home. It's time to call my friend and tell her I can't meet her tonight. I have promises to keep. She'll understand. After all, she's a teacher.

如果中了彩票头奖

2005-07-31T18:22:00.000-07:00

老妈：你会做什么？
我：我会先赎身，然后开学校。
老爸：你把钱存入银行收利息就行了，开学校反而花钱。
我：（想了一想）那，我先赎身，然后到贫穷国家去教书吧！

老爸和老妈没再继续谈这个话题了。
（* ^ - ^*)

三秒钟

2005-07-24T18:43:00.000-07:00

翁精敏

　　在《联合早报》（7月16日）读到一篇很有趣，而且也很能启发人心的报道。是关于沈望傅的“恋爱史”。与其说是“恋爱”，不如说是“失恋”吧！就因为在那短暂的“三秒钟”内，他没有作出果敢的决定，结果“错失了生命最重要的黄金时刻”。

　　为了不让一些错过这篇报道的读者摸不着脑袋，请允许我在这里略为重述一下他当年的那段遭遇。

　　事缘他暗恋多时的同班女生，在他面前不小心摔了一跤，跌进小沟，手上的本子散落一地。可是他却木讷的愣在原地，嘀咕着该不该，或怎么去帮助前面这名令他心仪的女孩。

　　等他花了“三秒钟”时间想通之后，机会早已飞逝了，因为那名女孩已经自行爬起来，非常无助的捡起了本子，也“恶狠狠”的瞪了他一眼，便飘然而去。

　　过后的30年，他说他还是继续的愣在那令他遗憾无比的一刹那。他后悔自己没有立时跨出一步，在咫尺的距离内把握良机，向心爱的人伸出援手。他事后想，如果他那么做，历史可能会“改写”。

　　有人或许会那么安慰他：“命里有时终须有，命里无时莫强求。”但我却不以为然。那样的思想未免太过消极了。

　　创新科技能有今天的成就，不就是因为他经历那“三秒钟”的教训之后，开始懂得珍惜、掌握上天所赋予他的每一个商机吗？

　　至于他所需付出的代价，局外人的确是很难完全体会的。而且，正如他的校长“棺材脸”所说的，那是他的选择，他需要为自己的选择负责。

　　但这不也正是人之所以身为人的意义吗？一个不必付代价、不必作选择、更不必负责任的人生还算是什么人生呢？

Well said

2005-07-15T23:29:00.000-07:00

Treat them like kids till they prove themselves as adults...

父の日

2005-06-14T11:17:00.000-07:00

My Father's Day Card
By Tom Krause

For a couple of reasons, Father's Day has been a bummer for me for quite some time now. Having lost my father in an automobile accident fifteen years ago, I would just as soon forget Father's Day and move on with summer. Loving my dad the way I did, I always looked forward to being a father myself. Playing catch, shooting baskets and kissing children good night after tucking them into bed were the special acts of love I wanted to give to my children. After ten years of marriage, however, I realized that those special acts of love would have to remain memories of my father's treatment of me. Due to a medical condition, my wife Kathy and I could not have children. As a schoolteacher, I rationalized that even though I never had children of my own, I still was around them enough to satisfy my parental longings. But something was always missing.
In twenty years of teaching and coaching, I've had the opportunity to teach thousands of students. It is very rewarding for me to watch my students as they change from children to teenagers to young adults. I love when they come back to visit and tell me of their dreams. I still envy parents who visit me during open-house nights at school. I wondered what that would be like to check on a son's or daughter's grades. Still I have my students, and I just convince myself that is enough. But something is still missing. A friend of mine helped me find a part of it.
I had just suffered through another Father's Day, and for some reason this one was one of the worst. Kathy and I had spent the day playing a round of golf, and we were teamed up with a father and his daughter. At one point in the round I heard the daughter say, "Good shot, Dad!" I was saddened when I realized that I would never hear those words from a child of my own. Upon arriving home, I went to the mailbox where I discovered an envelope addressed to me from a young lady named Melanie. Melanie was a former Miss Missouri who had come to speak to my students at school. We had quickly become friends and began speaking together at school assemblies on the topic of "Believing in Yourself." As I opened the envelope, I discovered a Father's Day card with my name on it. On the inside was a note thanking me for being there for so many of my students and a simple inscription - "I Love You, Dad!" As I read those words, my heart melted. I just wanted to dwell in the feeling of warmth and love this simple message had produced. For a brief moment, I had experienced the joy of fatherhood.
To this day, I cherish that act of kindness by my friend. It helped fill a missing part of my life that is special to me. Thank you, Melanie. You're a true friend. It's the only Father's Day card I've ever received.

子どもの話

2005-06-08T22:25:00.000-07:00

[小一班]
余小弟弟：这个老师很好，她先问我们叫什么名字。

[小四班]
林小弟弟的母亲：他跟我说，妈妈，我喜欢这个老师，她没有什么脾气。

[小五班]
老师：站好！看看你们的制服，这么乱！校训里头Honour是什么？最基本，BASIC的你们也做不到！

年龄

2005-06-07T17:21:00.000-07:00

有位朋友因今年29岁了，感触良深。
她说是时候好好计划结婚生子了。
我笑了笑，觉得不需要那么急。
观点不同吧！
想到日本的学生们，我总觉得
选择在于自己。跟随“一般人”的步伐
去做“某个年龄应该做的事”意义不大，
尤其是七十岁的老婆婆学习英语的
精神，就足以证明这一点。

人手短缺または忍受短缺

2005-05-18T03:40:00.000-07:00

大机构总有些莫名其妙的政策，让人觉得是个mockery of the system.
E.g. You're not good enough to be promoted, but you'll be called upon to
assume the responsibilities of a promoted staff for the time being.
有的人等了接近十年总过不了笔试口试这两关，但因operational requirements
而被公司用来充场面。由于充当上级时有extra allowance赚，擢升不了的
挫折感似乎也变得微不足道了。
不知道我在说什么?
嗯，那很好。让我在言论自由的当儿能保护自己。
嘻嘻~

放风吹，让猫跑

2005-05-14T10:03:00.000-07:00

在某种程度上，我是个反对"Don't judge a book by its cover"的读者。
那天原本想上书局收集多些教材，无意中看到了叶孝忠的这本书，手就痒了起来。
我是个很平凡的读者，和大众一样八卦，常常在猜“某某人是不是什么人的什么人”。

这是摘自沈帼英为叶孝忠写的序：
一个人旅行的时候有时候会想到你，
一直走的你，
你的脚很痒，
停不下来。
只要能挤出一点时间，
两天有两天的充实，
两个月有两个月的悠闲，
拿起背包，
你说走就走，
谁也留不住你。
你说妈妈问你是不是不回家了。
我想你可以这样回答她：
“我几时离开过家。”

那天鸡手鸭脚地不小心杀了这个matatobu.blogspot.com,
结果开始了matatobunotabi.blogspot.com
幸好有人拔刀相助，救活了它。

两个blog也好，管它多写多错，能锻炼文笔就好。
がんばります......

May 10

2005-05-10T16:45:00.000-07:00

主は正しい者を飢えさせない。しかし悪者の願いを突き放す。　箴言 10:3

I will comfort you
as a mother comforts her child.
Isaiah 66:13

May 9

2005-05-09T16:44:00.000-07:00

May the joy of the Lord be given to everyone
who loves him and his salvation.
May they constantly exclaim,
"How great God is!"
Psalm 40:16

May 8

2005-05-08T07:37:00.000-07:00

御名を知る者はあなたに拠り頼みます。主よ。あなたはあなたを尋ね求める者をお見捨てになりませんでした。　詩篇 9:10

Listen to me... you whom I have upheld
since you were conceived,
and have carried since your birth.
Even to your old age and gray hairs I am he,
I am he who will sustain you.
I have made you and I will carry you.
Isaiah 46:3-4

May 7

2005-05-07T14:26:00.000-07:00

神、その道は完全。主のみことばは純粋。主はすべて彼に身を避ける者の盾。　詩篇 18:30

So God has given us both his promise and his oath.
These two things are unchangeable because it is impossible
for God to lie. Therefore, we who have fled to him for
refuge can take new courage, for we can hold on to his
promise with confidence. Hebrews 6:18

出尔反尔

2005-05-06T23:25:00.000-07:00

上了近八周的辅导初级课程，顺利地进入了中级班。去年11月去面试时，我信心满满地说：“以后，每周腾出几个小时应该没问题。”

这九周的小学实习中，我也风雨不改，上了四堂辅导观学。怎么偏偏这段过渡时期让我感到这么累呢？

結局、やめることにしました。

初级课的导师联络上了我，听了我的理由，好像也不怎么能接受。

三年前就想完成这个课程了......
どうしよう......

May 6

2005-05-06T19:51:00.000-07:00

悪はどんな悪でも避けなさい。　第一テサロニケ 5:22

Don't be afraid, for I have ransomed you;
I have called you by name; you are mine.
When you go through deep waters and
great trouble, I will be with you.
Isaiah 43:1-2

一个惊喜

2005-05-04T12:54:00.000-07:00

今天是小猴子康康的生日。他仔细地从衣柜挑选出帽子给他的朋友戴。他还无微不至地制造了巧克力牛奶给他朋友喝。他去找老虎妈妈，邀请她出席生日派对。老虎妈妈说：“我必须照顾小老虎，不能参加你的生日派对。”她提议小猴子去找蜘蛛先生。蜘蛛先生弹了一下他的网，说：“我要制作蜘蛛绸，不能抽空去你的生日派对。”猴子回到家，十分伤心。他说：“这是一个悲伤的生日。”他无意中发现老虎妈妈和蜘蛛先生在门外。“生日快乐！”

写一首诗给你

2005-05-04T12:40:00.000-07:00

*温暖*
天黑夜过黎明到
万家灯火遇风高
母爱就像光与亮
使我感到寒中暖

*太阳与小草*
艰苦和苦难太阳伴着我
狂风暴雨时太阳保护我
每次绝望时太阳安慰我
太阳像我的母亲
我就是那小草

*母亲，我爱你！*
母亲的爱烧不尽
母亲的情斩不断
母亲的心摸不到
母亲的情感觉到
母亲的饭真好吃
母亲，我爱你！

なるほど

2005-05-04T12:37:00.000-07:00

你平时这么爱拍照，这次面对这么多可爱的小孩，有没有大拍特拍？

没。

为什么？

可能因为觉得自己会被派回去教他们，所以不和他们太亲。

嗯。

May 5

2005-05-04T12:17:00.000-07:00

私には、あなたの戒めがあるので、わきまえがあります。それゆえ、私は偽りの道をことごとく憎みます。詩篇 119:104

Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls;
all your waves and breakers have swept over me.
By day the Lord directs his love,
at night his song is with me -
a prayer to the God of my life.
Psalm 42:7-8

Ang Moh

2005-04-09T23:20:00.000-07:00

Simon是澳洲人，太太Christine是法国人。
他们在新加坡住了3年，爱上了我们丰富的本地色彩。

有一次，Simon看到路牌竟兴奋地喊道："Hey! That's our road."
原来是Ang Mo Kio.

记得我们还是同事时，他每天到处问人："Hor Bor？”
有一回，他到槟城出差几天，回来后得意地让我看了他买的一本书，
说他决定读PhD.
搞了半天，原来是本Penang Hokkien Dictionary.

公司食堂的小贩很喜欢Simon，尤其是水果摊。
因为Simon会一面正经地说：“Ang Moh Lew Lian, please."

机场

2005-04-09T14:03:00.000-07:00

作者：张芷若（中三生）

机场给我的感觉，就是一种轮回。
有人去、有人回，
有人一去不复返、有人一返不再去。
有喜有乐、有苦有悲。

在机场里体会到的是最真实、最无瑕的，
飞机则代表着我们的心情，
有起有落。

因为快乐过，才会感受伤痛，
但也因为有离别才会让我们更珍惜重逢；
体会过悲伤，更能了解幸福。

去的伤感、
接的开心。

让我穿好鞋吧！

2005-04-09T13:33:00.000-07:00

作者：毛尖

　　蛇、蚂蚁、蜘蛛、蜈蚣几个在家里搓麻将。八圈之后，烟抽完了。大家商量让谁去买烟。蛇说我没脚，我不去，让蚂蚁去。蚂蚁说，蜘蛛八只脚，比我的多，让蜘蛛去。蜘蛛说，我的脚再多也比不过蜈蚣大哥呀，让蜈蚣去吧。蜈蚣无奈，叹口气，谁让我脚多呢？于是蜈蚣出门去买烟。

　　一个钟头过去了，不见蜈蚣回来，两个钟头过去了，还不见蜈蚣回来。于是大家让蜘蛛出去看看，蜘蛛一出门就看见蜈蚣在门口坐着，蜘蛛很生气，问：你怎么还不去呀？我们都等疯了。蜈蚣也急了，说：“总得让我穿好鞋吧！”

痛苦

2005-04-08T00:21:00.000-07:00

守仁小弟弟来自奥克兰。和同乡小龙比起来，他争气多了。
In other words, 我和他说话，从来不觉得自己是ET.
听说有个小明（越南来的）是守仁的死党，刚转校。

痛苦：小明去了新的学校，我很痛苦。

我很不客气地打了个又肥又大的叉。

翻开他的改正，差点没口吐白沫。

改正：我的同学小明去了新的学校，我很痛苦。

后来，张莺解释了，我才恍然大悟。原来他一开始便问张莺
怎么造，而张莺说痛苦就是非常难受的意思。

后来，他更不明白为什么我叫他重造。
张莺便再指点他说：“你应该写清楚你和小明的关系。”

Dun pray pray, 别看他小小年纪，守仁很重感情喔。

鱼

2005-04-05T21:00:00.000-07:00

《悼念叶惠美》
胡月宝

最近，一家人上餐厅吃饭时，儿子老和她争鱼头吃。

你吃什么鱼头嘛！根本不会吃！鱼眼最鲜，你却扔在桌面上，整副鱼头也还这么完整的，完全没剥动……

妈妈在餐桌上唠叨了半日，儿子却笑嘻嘻的，挤眉弄眼，却不为所动。他铁了心，下次还要和妈妈抢鱼头。

妈妈，鱼头就给我嘛！你吃鱼背，肉厚刺少……

自解事以来，只要鱼一端上桌，儿子都看见妈妈左手使筷，右手持汤匙，利落地将鱼背上的肉剥下，送往自己的碗中。儿子呢，无鱼不欢。很快的，一尾鱼便剩下光秃秃的鱼骨架和突眼咧齿的鱼头了。

饭饱水足以后，儿子便坐不住，吵着要走。

等一等，妈妈还在吃鱼头。

一顿饭总是要在爸爸吆喝，妈妈啃鱼头的漫漫时光中结束。

儿子上了中学以后，年龄的增长并没有使他更有耐性，而少年味觉的改变也使他开始讨厌吃鱼，也讨厌一家子一起上餐馆，更讨厌等妈妈吃完鱼头才能离开。在餐桌前，他的胃装满了电脑游戏、5566偶像剧情、闪个没完的手机……自己碗里的鱼肉和妈妈碟上的鱼头都想落荒而逃……

解决问题的念头在儿子因长期接受鱼肉滋补的聪明脑袋里运转着。有了，真是一举两得的好办法！抢妈妈的鱼头，让妈妈吃鱼肉……自己既无需吃鱼肉也不必耗时间等妈妈吃鱼头……瞧！够机灵吧！周杰伦都没有我聪明！

儿子并没有机会和妈妈抢鱼头了；他也再不必等妈妈把鱼头啃干净了。

那一天，一家子因为妈妈不必吃鱼头而提早十分钟离开餐馆。

在巴士候车亭里，妈妈还为鱼头的事惋惜，儿子迅速地在耳叶上挂上耳机，背对着妈妈，以周杰伦的叶惠美呢喃来抵御妈妈的鱼头挽词。

一盏离愁孤单伫立在窗口，我在门后，假装你还没走。旧地如重游，月圆更寂寞……

一辆迎面而来的超速汽车撞上巴士候车亭时，妈妈毫不犹豫地挡在对声声惊呼都充耳不闻的儿子前面。

V. V. True

2005-04-02T11:42:00.000-08:00

1. Book on Feurestein's Method:
Author Sharron, Howard.
Title Changing children's minds : Feuerstein's revolution in the teaching of
intelligence

It's available in NUS Central Library:
CL Books BF432 Chi.S
CL Closed Stacks (Loans Desk 3) BF432 Chi.S

2. More on Feurestein: (abstract from:
http://www.scel.org/aboutus/feuerstein.asp)
Professor Reuven Feuerstein is a world-renowned cognitive psychologist,
known for his groundbreaking research in cognitive modifiability. Rejecting the idea
that intelligence is fixed, he established the principle that all children can
learn how to learn.

Professor Feuerstein is the founder and director of the International Center
for the Enhancement of Learning Potential (ICELP) and the Hadassah-
WISO-Canada Research Institute in Jerusalem, Israel. He has been a Professor of Psychology at the School of Education at the University of Bar Ilan in Israel; Adjunct Professor at George Peabody College at Vanderbilt University in Nashville,
Tennessee; Visiting Professor at Yale University; and a regular speaker at
many other U.S. universities.

Professor Feuerstein, a holocaust survivor, began developing his theories in
the late 1940's while working with children who had been separated from
their parents by the holocaust. Because of the low IQ scores these children had, many people considered them cognitively hopeless. However, Feuerstein and his
colleagues insisted on further testing.

"The IQ tests we did on these children had no way of taking into account
the horrific experiences they had lived through, or of telling, we believed, what
their true potential was. When we assessed the children differently through
a routine to measure their learning capacity, rather than their present
performance, we discovered that all of the children had potentials that had
been completely submerged in the standard IQ tests."

Through his subsequent work with underachieving individuals, Professor
Feuerstein determined that the proposition "present performance indicates
potential" was untrue. This led to the development of the theories of
Structural Cognitive Modifiability and Mediated Learning Experience and a
definition of intelligence as "the capacity of the individual to use previous
experience in his adaptation to new situations." For more information, go to
www.icelp.org.

3) International Center for the Enhancement of Learning Potential (ICELP)
http://www.icelp.org/asp/main.asp

Abstract from the site:
When faced with any disability or challenge, one of the primary motivating
factors is hope. Hope reflects the fundamental belief that there is a
possibility to bring about significant change, which in turn leads to a more
optimistic future. True hope can only be achieved if there is solid evidence
that real change will actually take place. This is where Professor Reuven
Feuerstein Theory of Structural Cognitive Modifiability comes into play. The
International Center for the Enhancement of Learning Potential (ICELP) was
established with the goal of continuing and expanding the educational and
psychological work initiated by Prof. Feuerstein. The work of the ICELP is
based on the theories of Structural Cognitive Modifiability and Mediated
Learning Experience, which serve as a basis for three applied systems: the
Learning Potential Assessment Device (LPAD), Instrumental Enrichment
(IE)cognitive intervention program, and Shaping Modifying Environment.

ICELP specializes in providing a wide range of Services, Trainings, Research
and Development.

周记三篇

2005-03-29T22:50:00.000-08:00

梁文福

1

　　今天的天气很好。妈妈一大早带我出门，在电梯里，遇到邻居的昂哥和他的小孩，还有一个女人，牵着小孩的手。小孩叫她安娣。妈妈曾经对我说，小孩的安娣是菲律宾来的，还念过大学。什么是大学？我问妈妈。妈妈说，等你念大学时就知道了。妈妈对邻居的昂哥说，你太太很了不起呀，我昨天在报上看到，她又出国开会去了。昂哥微笑，没有回答，只是回头吩咐小孩的安娣，下午记得带小孩去上音乐课。

教师评语：表达不清楚，没头没尾。记得要分段。

2

　　今天天气很好。妈妈和我回家时，在电梯口，遇到邻居的昂哥。昂哥的小孩长高了，可是还要他的安娣抱。那个安娣抱着小孩，让小孩亲吻昂哥。妈妈对昂哥说，你的小孩和你很亲啊。昂哥开心地说，他和他的安娣更亲呢。昂哥进电梯之前，对小孩的安娣说，我今晚加班，你们先睡。小孩的安娣带着小孩回家，我也和妈妈回到自己的家。我问妈妈，为什么你说别叫那个女人安娣？妈妈说，你叫了昂哥，就不要在昂哥面前叫她安娣，这样会不礼貌的。可是，我说，那个小孩也叫她安娣呀？妈妈说，我叫你不要这样叫，你就不要这样叫。

　　教师评语：表达不清楚。这篇周记我好像看过，请你来见我。

3

　　今天天气很好。妈妈一大早带我出门时，在电梯里，遇到邻居的昂哥和他的小孩，还有小孩的安娣。小孩让他的安娣牵着手，昂哥俯下身子，让小孩亲吻他。然后，小孩就让他的安娣牵着上巴刹去了。小孩的安娣对昂哥说今晚早点回来，昂哥很开心地向她笑了笑，就走了。上了车，妈妈对我说，以后你可以叫那个女人安娣了。我说，为什么现在我又可以跟着那个小孩叫她安娣了呢？妈妈说，你叫安娣，他叫安娣，意思不一样。他从前叫她安娣，现在叫她安娣，意思也不一样。我很乱。妈妈说，等你念大学时就知道了。

教师评语：表达不清楚。这篇周记我好像批改过，你太懒了，重做。

YYY

2005-03-25T11:01:00.000-08:00

卖火柴的女孩：

你为什么要死?
你为什么要买火柴？
你为什么不要回家？
你为什么怕你的家人？

XXX

2005-03-25T10:58:00.000-08:00

"老师老师，我不是华人。我是ABC！"

"ABC也是华人。XYZ 也是华人，懂吗？"

... ...

扫兴

2005-03-25T10:37:00.000-08:00

为什么你不能
像扫帚一样懂事

为什么你不能
扫开顽皮的自己

为什么你争先恐后
举手后
竟然说

你不知道？

格格不入

2005-03-19T19:10:00.000-08:00

原来
我不喜欢的东西好像不少

不喜欢她教书的seh
但喜欢细细咀嚼她教的东西

不喜欢和你们出来吃饭
但不懂得如何说清楚

就这样
和尴尬面对面地坐了十几年
没有默契
没有共鸣

静悄悄也好
闹哄哄也好
不如分开
一起过这个世纪好吗

鱼的困境

2005-03-19T10:27:00.000-08:00

吃了黄春明那条鲣仔鱼，发现自己和阿公很像。
我们都是爱吃鱼的人。

在尝试听听阿苍在山谷里的回音时，发现自己的声音
好像被困在びっくり箱一样从来没有放出来过。
虽然我也住在Braddell "Hill"...

最近在家时，脾气“有点”不好。
我虽然不喜欢太安静的地方，但也不习惯一家人喊来喊去的。
“好了，别说了。我觉得讲到这里就够了。”这是我walk away之前的台词。

如果能痛痛快快地喊出来，可能也不需要工作，能吃一辈子kah li peng
(咖哩饭)了。这是我从一个小孩身上得来的灵感。我记得他是这么告诉他老师
的：“老师，老师，我长大后要当强盗。因为被关进监牢后三餐温饱。”

沟通，太难。

HMの告白

2005-03-18T19:00:00.000-08:00

A few years ago a book titled "All I Really Need to Know I Learned in Kindergarten" became a big bestseller here in the U.S., and in my case the same thing can be said: "All I need to know I learned in my jazz bar."

I acquired various knowledge at the schools that I attended, but frankly speaking, this kind of knowledge didn't help me very much when writing a novel. I have no idea of maintaining that the school education is meaningless, but I rarely met a situation when it came home to me how important my school education was. When I was a small boy, my mother told me that "If you don't work hard now, you will have regrets for not having studied harder after having grown up."

Her advice gave me a vague feeling that she might be right, but still I can't understand what she really meant. That's because after grown up, I've never regretted that "I should have studied harder when young."

It is my twenties that taught me some truth about how I should live, and in those days I was literally engaged in physical labor day after day. I spent every day in my twenties working both physically and desperately hard in order to pay my debts every month. I could not think about anything else even if I tried. But as a result, that kind of hard labor nourished me most. Labor was the best teacher to me and my "true university."

プレゼント

2005-03-18T09:00:00.000-08:00

Yesterday is history,
Tomorrow's a mystery.
Today is a gift;
That's why they call it "the present".

リンゴとオレンジ

2005-03-16T08:30:00.000-08:00

Pさん：

まだ怒っているかな？
ごめんね。

知り合って以来、Pさんを優しくて、賢い天秤座
と認めていました。根気よくて、いつも私の
スケジュールに合わせてくれます。
ありがとう。

ここで、ただひとつ言いたいものがある。
「二人を比較したことない。本当。」

偽者

2005-03-16T08:15:00.000-08:00

クリスチャンになって以来、もっともっと幸せになってきた以外、
何も変わっていません。教会の礼拝にいかなくても、Fellowshipに
参加しなくても、神様の愛に囲まれていると信じます。

一般的に、そんな人は周りのクリスチャンにとって、「本当のクリスチャン」
と認められていないかもしれません。

どうになっても、自分に一番ふさわしくて自然な方法で神様に導かれて
いきたいと思います。

あのね、周りの皆さん、お願いがあります。私の祈り方は伝統的ではない
かもしれないけど、本当に心の底から祈っています。もしよかったら、
干渉しなくてもいい？

ありがとう。

垃圾虫

2005-03-10T17:10:00.000-08:00

那天休息时，我照旧陪几个死都不肯做改正的瓜在班上。
阿蓁正好是当天的值日生，拿着扫帚。扫了不到两分钟，
她把扫帚放回墙角边，说：“不扫了，扫来扫去，都一样脏！”

后来，她说：“老师，你下课后可以把你的垃圾带走吗？”

老人家，总是落东西在班上。post-it lah, 草稿啦等等。

今天应该是最高境界吧！

我的教案在哪里？？！

明天又要给小老人训了。（*’ ‘*）

小小世界

2005-03-10T16:50:00.000-08:00

班上有小君、小龙、小明。都是越南孩子和angmoh孩子。
小君有点samseng，但不至于坏到让人吐血。他喜欢走来走去，
gek seh.

阿恩是印尼孩子。很讨厌（不用怀疑，我指的是讨人喜欢百看不厌)。
他最喜欢在上课时扫地。

嘉明也是越南来的小孩子。
他喜欢乱走。跟他说话，你会觉得自己很像ET.

昨天说好了，谁的名字让我叫了3回，今天就陪我共度recess.

本来想叫他们帮我布置布告版的，但来不及准备材料。有点便宜他们，只叫
他们写了三句话：我在上课时乱走动。我应该坐好。我要对老师说：“对不起。”

明天再抓人，陪我过recess. (~ -）Y

小安

2005-03-10T16:45:00.000-08:00

小安叫安然。很好听的名字。
和他昨晚用clarinet吹的曲子一样。

K说要打给他妈妈，说他在班上很吵。
小安说：“我不知道她的手机号码啦！”

欠扁的大孩子。

小X

2005-03-10T16:40:00.000-08:00

听说小X妈妈是个唱歌的，家里没人督促她读书。
她在周记里也自嘲在学业上是满江红，但弹钢琴却难不倒她。
昨晚在学校的演出中听了她的演奏，还真是蛮有天分的。

小X在班上老是叽叽喳喳的。K把她揪到自己的桌子坐，好一个贵宾席。
但她还是叽叽喳喳的。

哎哟哟！我小时候比她更叽喳。
老妈说我常常在天台和小鸟说话。
够厉害吧……

快乐吗

2005-03-10T05:00:00.000-08:00

同事们都很年轻。
其中有个叫KK的，是合约老师。
每天早上会用007的口吻问大家：“快乐吗？”

你快乐吗？

我快疯了。但还是很快乐。
觉得能做自己想做的事，一切顺心，太快乐了。

苦一点也值得。

酸得好!!!

2005-03-07T16:00:00.000-08:00

"J同学，为什么每次分试卷时你就很像疯掉一样，离开座位啊？
有必要走到D同学那里去吗？"

J还没来得及解释，多嘴的D就开口了。
“老师，是我有东西问他啦！不耻下问。”

（为什么D同学这么不害臊呢？原来J同学的成绩一向不怎么样，
而D同学则名列前茅。）

K:“你是无耻，不是不耻下问，懂吗？”

撒野

2005-03-02T20:30:00.000-08:00

“你的周记什么时候交啊？”
“老师，我没灵感写。”
“那让我帮帮你。你站起来吧！可能站过之后就有灵感了."

"回答问题前请举手。”
“那算了。我不希罕回答。”
“那你也请起立吧！”

是你改的吗？

2005-03-02T20:28:00.000-08:00

"好。让我来解释我怎么批改这两项理解问答。"
...
...
...

"老师，你这种改法，那我们把整个篇章抄给你就行了。"

欠扁。

相处之道

2005-03-02T20:15:00.000-08:00

1. 这里不是咖啡店。

2. 该安静的时候请自动。

3. 请准时交功课。

其实这25个瓜不是中国人，就是台湾人。
能言善道、爱耍嘴皮。
K说他们多数留级，因为其他科目成绩烂透了。
真可惜。为什么不能为这些少数民族找华文老师
教数学、科学呢？

鸡婆

2005-03-02T19:42:00.000-08:00

“老师！为什么这两天没在巴士站见到你？”
“老师，你几点上学？”
“照常。”
“照常是几点？那前两天见到你的时间不是照常吗？”

真是莫名其妙。那天闪我闪得那么快，今天又问这么多。
うるさい！

怎么可能

2005-02-24T16:00:00.000-08:00

有一天，一个大胆的小孩儿，竟然在造句作业中惹火了老师。
目空一切，什么例子好用不用，竟敢贬自己的老师，没有死过。

“我的华文老师英语很差，偏偏爱讲英语，真是目空一切。”

语法-这样也可以及格meh？

应用-哪里可以给他及格？

礼貌-想及格？很难

总分-给你一分你就偷笑喽！

小朋友24.02.05

2005-02-24T00:06:00.000-08:00

今天，小龙不会做复习试卷。
我上前想帮帮他，说了几句“引导”他做答的话后，
觉得他的表情很像是在听ET讲话一样。
他说：“Actually I don't understand Chinese very well."

Don't pray pray. 词语搭配中，他很bia：

1 富有的（大海）
2 骗人的（人家)
3 窗外的（谎话）
4 同情的（冬瓜）
5 广阔的（脚印）

我觉得他在修辞方面有一点天分。

讽子曰：......

2005-02-24T00:00:00.000-08:00

觉得看Kさん教学很过瘾，很象在看吴宗宪讽人。

Kさん：怎么啦？你又忘了给妈妈签考卷啊？
小妹妹：老师！我妈妈很忙。
Kさん：哦，是吗？这么忙啊？
小妹妹：老师！我妈妈忙着照顾弟弟。
Kさん：你几个弟弟？一百个？
（我这时从椅子上跌了下来）
小妹妹：两个......

小弟弟：老师，外面有人！
Kさん：有鬼才跟我讲啦！人我也看得到......
（刚刚从地上爬回椅子上不到三分钟，我又跌下来了）

小胖：老师，明天测验做完了可以早走吗？
Kさん：你啊？哎哟。提早做完是不可能的啦！！

Excuse me, R u my neighbor?

2005-02-23T17:40:00.000-08:00

今天早上在巴士站，碰见了两个“瓜”和他们的老豆。
太巧了吧！原来是“另”一个在班上的机关枪小弟弟和他姐姐。

不碰到他们我还没觉察到姐姐也在我班上。
冤家路窄，他们想避免和我搭同一辆巴士，偏偏人算不如天算，
我奉陪他们等到下一辆来。

小弟弟难逃劫数，正好坐在我面前。
姐姐坚持保持距离，站得远远的。
下了车后，当然是无言的结局，他们象见了鬼一样跑得远远的。

谁怕谁，上课时看你们往哪儿跑。
哈哈哈

SMS

2005-02-22T06:07:00.000-08:00

（报载，为推广华文学习，有关当局将举办手机简讯短诗创作比赛……。）

千万难（季军）
欲发简讯问暖寒
又怕君开车不专
发与不发间
妾身千万难

喊你喊你（亚军）
我用简讯喊你
你听到吗
我在喊你　　亲爱的
喊你
其实我不懂你的心
是否又变了？
还是你又换了新手机？
你听到我在喊你吗？
喊你

我一想你就:) (冠军)
我一想你就 :)
一则简讯给你发一个 :)
手机电池快耗完了
今天已经发了几百个 :)
我会爱你爱到
把自己消耗完了
还是要对你　　:)
:)
:)
:)

我不会写诗我只会发简讯和
:)

梁文福

小朋友 22.02.05

2005-02-22T02:41:00.000-08:00

男生Y:
“你就别跟老师列些没有意义的规矩了！诶,你在大学时是念什么的？”
“你专心做习字吧！下个星期自有分晓。”
“还真会强词夺理。”
*晕*

女生A公然和女生B在课堂上做数学功课。
“你叫什么名字？”
“P"
“下次不要在上华文课时做数学作业，好吗?”
她点了点头。
But then, 信她才怪！

（- -；）

小朋友 21.02.05

2005-02-21T05:52:00.000-08:00

男生Y:
“你是不是来取代XX老师的？”
我瞪了他一眼，摇摇头。
"原来是个哑巴！"
真是没大没小。

女生A明目张胆地抄女生B的作业本子。
我趁她偷看我时，撅起嘴，摇了摇头，示意她“好自为之”。
没一会儿，女生B把自己的作业本子收了起来。

不要变老

2005-02-13T23:32:00.000-08:00

我想我已經愛上你　因為我開始感到傷心
傷心即使最美的花朵　也終將凋零
我想我一定愛上你　否則我不會如此悲淒
悲淒歲月是如此無情　像照妖鏡

你的臉　你的眼　你的玉腿　都將漸漸枯萎變形
愛你愈深　就讓我愈感到觸目驚心

＊你可不可以不要變老　你可不可以不要變得嘮叨
看着現在的你　楚楚動人的魅力　叫我

我想我有點歇斯底裡　我無法不想未來的情景
一對沉默的老夫老妻　將後悔深埋心裡
不要說我危言聳聽　歷史留給我們很多教訓
如果你懷疑我的顧慮　回去問問你的父親

你的臉　你的眼　你的玉腿　都將漸漸枯萎變形
你的甜　你的媚　你的無邪　都將漸漸不見縱影
你的羞　你的柔　你的成熟　都將漸漸成為回憶
愛你愈深　就讓我愈感到觸目驚心

你可不可以不要變老　你可不可以不要變得嘮叨
只是上帝的規定　好像沒有奇跡　叫我不知如何是好

重唱　＊

我想我需要更多勇氣　才能夠承諾愛你至死不渝
否則一時錯誤的決定　卻要一生來收拾殘局
不要說我不懂愛情　讓我們誠誠實實面對問題
或許在你的內心深處　有着同樣的恐懼

P.S.今天看了《ハウルの動く城》中被巫婆下了咒的Sophie，冒出很多句“原来老了是这样XX的”、“原来老了能XX，真过瘾”等等的领悟。突然变老的Sophie望着镜中年老的自己，一边乱跳，一边喃喃自语道：「落ち着けなきゃ！落ち着けなきゃ！」，真的很滑稽。(^ ^)

如果有一天，我也突然变老，会不会像Sophie这样卡通呢？可能我会和Howl一样，立刻疯掉。（； ;)哈哈。

P.P.S. 这次错过了黄舒骏的演唱会，有点dui。没办法，希望他再来喽......

君たちのおかげで......

2005-02-12T21:26:00.000-08:00

不是连体婴，
却能在思想上紧紧相系

你们的自私，
使我们显得乖巧

你们的霸道，
让我们学会容忍

因为你们，
我们不再计较

没有你们，
我们会如此亲密吗？

懐かしい思い出

2005-02-11T18:05:00.000-08:00

Teaching English in Japan has been incredibly rewarding. I came here out of a longing for adventure and travel, and for a little relaxation. Miraculously, I've achieved all that and more. I've traveled all over the main island of Honshu, filled the pages of five journals, read over 60 books, written four short stories, and made friends with teachers and scholars from all over the world. I've been able to receive and had the chance to give back.

But my heart lies with my students - the businessmen who are being transferred to America, the housewives who want to expand their horizons, the high school students whose fondest wish is to attend a university in the States.

Over the course of the year that I have taught, I've often wondered who was the student and who was the teacher. The pupils nurtured and comforted me, helping me to better understand the Japanese culture. They applauded when I struggled with my first hiragana letters. They accompanied me to grocery store after grocery store, where I searched for three months to find peanut butter. They showed me how to fold paper into an origami swan and took me on riverboat rides. They invited me to traditional tea ceremonies, and over omisoka, the Japanese New Year, they took me into their homes, where they prepared meals in my honor. They also took me to the temple and taught me how to select a fortune; then they quickly gathered around, crying, "You have much good fortune! You big lucky!"

The last few weeks, as I've made preparations to return home, have been jam-packed with sayonara parties and gifts. So many students have showered me with presents: purses of handwoven silk, jewelry boxes, designer handkerchiefs, jade earrings and gold-trimmed china plates. We've sung ourselves hoarse at karaoke, hugged, held hands and exchanged countless good-byes. And through it all, I've managed to keep my emotions in check. Instead, I've let them shed the tears while I comforted them with promises to write.

Tonight is my last night to teach, and I'm ending it on an exceptionally high note with my favorite class. They're the advanced students, and over the year, we've engaged in political discussions, learned slang, role-played and done something rare among different cultures - we've laughed at one another's jokes.

While I'm preparing for this last class, Mika, the school manager, calls me to the front lobby. I enter the room and see the staff and several students standing around, hands clasped in eager anticipation. All eyes are turned in my direction. Mika has one last gift for me.

I carefully unwrap the paper, as the presentation of the gift is as important as the gift itself. The wrapper slowly slides off, and I see that she has given me a scrapbook. She tells me she prepared it just last night after weeks of collaborating with the students. I see the redness in her eyes. I open the cover.

Filling the pages are recent snapshots of all my students. Beside the pictures are personal notes written by them on small, colorful squares of paper. They've decorated the papers with hearts, smiles, little cat faces and neon-colored lines, stars, dots and triangles.

I know the challenge my students face in stringing together even simple phrases, and as I read, the dam of emotions I've been holding back begins to crack.

Thank you for your kindley teach.
I had interesting class. Now maybe someday I go to
America.
I am forget to you.
I've been enjoying to study English.
Thank you for everything you did me. I very sad you
go to America.
Please don't forget memories in Japan.

My tears begin to fall. I grope for words that have flowed so easily over the last year. My hands lightly touch the pages, and I outline their faces with my fingertips. I close the cover and wrap the book in my arms, holding it tightly to my heart.

The scrapbook has captured them forever. I may be leaving, but I'm taking each one of them back with me to America.

The Scrapbook
By Gina Marie Jerome

Everyday Creativity

2005-02-09T18:29:00.000-08:00

Toothpick
Reminds us to look for the good qualities in our students
You may be the only teacher who says something positive
To them that day

Rubber band
Reminds teachers that we have to be flexible
Things don't always go the way we plan
But flexibility will help to work it out

Band Aid
Reminds teachers that sometimes we do more than teach
That we help heal hurt feelings, broken dreams,
And lend an ear to a problem

Pencil
Reminds us to be thankful
And we should list our blessings daily
But also encourage students to list theirs
And to be proud of their accomplishments

Eraser
reminds us to allow students to know we are human
And make mistakes just like they do, And it's okay
We must all be able to learn from our mistakes

Chewing gum
Reminds us to stick with it
And encourage our students to do likewise
Even the impossible task or assignment can be accomplished
By sticking to it

Candy kiss
Reminds us that everyone needs a hug,
Kiss or warm fuzzy every day

Tea bag
Reminds us we need time to relax
Go over our blessing and take time for others

The Heart of A Teacher, Ruth Anne Muir (p. 125)

観音様

2005-02-09T03:48:00.000-08:00

二年前、小松さんと奥さん、娘のももこちゃんを連れて「四马路観音寺」に行きました。その時、お寺の伝統的なお御籤の引き方を見せてあげたかったので、私も初めてお御籤を引きました。

お御籤のメッセージは偶然にも私の置かれた状態とピッタリ合っていました。「The sky's the limit」と書かれていました。ちょうどその時、前に勤めていた会社を再度辞めて、神戸での教師の仕事に戻ることを決めていました。両親には辞表を提出した１週間後に知らせました。二人ともすごく怒りました。多分、娘に裏切られたような思いをしたのでしょう。だから、お御籤を引いた時、私は辞めるという決断は後悔していませんでしたが、両親がその決断に納得してくれていないことに悩んでいました。

去年の年末、兄にちょっとしたトラブルがありました。しかし、幸い何事もなく終わりました。それは観音様の加護があったからだと信じています。私は去年キリスト教徒になりましたが、二年前に不思議な体験をしたので、今でも観音様を信じています。はっきり説明できませんが、問題が奇跡のように解決できた際、なぜか観音様がずっと兄を見守っておられる、そんな気がしてなりません。

最近、友達と一緒に、同じお寺の観音様にお礼参りに行きました。二年ぶりでした。お御籤を引こうかどうか迷いましたが、結局、引いてしまいました。

今年のメッセージには「Imagine a mirror one thousand years old were to brighten again. 」と書いてありました。

その鏡が輝いていくのを楽しみにしています。

Basket

2005-02-05T06:46:00.000-08:00

那天在学校食堂坐了四个小时，试图捕捉写散文的灵感。

突然莫名其妙“手痒”，就给一位朋友发了求助sms.
他在弄清楚了我的散文必须写关于一个熟悉的地方之后，立刻用拼音写成一段开头，电邮给我参考。

我想，有这种好友，我大概可以死而无憾吧！

dou zhen me dou nian le, wo hai she wang bu liao...
nar ke lau puo hai she zai nar xiao jie tou de jiao lou mai rou chui kuo tiau.
wo bu xiao de si du zhi er hai shi je me duo nien the nien xiang, long dao wo lui kou sui lui de bu ting.
jen de shi hen kang kar. yi liu jiu liu dao yi fu shang.

pen lai she da xuan dai wo "city" peng you lai kuang wo de xiang xia, ping chang zhe pian de mei shi, ke shi mei xiang dao hui peng jian Zhang lao puo.
Shuo zhen de, ta de mien ye bu she jui hao che de, ke shi dai ke wo de hui yi shi mei de pi de.

xiao shi, .... (cont'd youself??)

都这么多年了，我还是忘不了。
那个老伯还是在那小街头的角落卖肉脞粿条。
我不晓得是肚子饿还是这么多年的想念，弄到我流口水流得不停。
真的是很尴尬。一流就流到衣服上。
本来是打算带我朋友来逛我的乡下，品尝这边的美食，可是没想到
会碰见张老伯。
说真的，他的面也不是最好吃的，可是带给我的回忆是没得比的。

P.S. Big Basket, I think you wrote really well. :) This reminds me of the long telephone calls we've had, with you educating me on the world map on my brother's wall. Small basket is glad our friendship has survived the days of the jogging kitty. Gam Sia! Yum seng!

爱神

2005-02-04T16:52:00.000-08:00

爱上神户的感觉很奥妙。

和朋友间的偶遇一样，我和她的邂逅似乎是冥冥中早已安排。

面试两个星期后，ボス（藤岡さん）拨了通长途电话给我。
“郑小姐，恭喜你被录取为我们的英语教师。”
“谢谢你的通知。”
为了体验生活、为了改变环境、为了寻找梦想，我接受了这项挑战，只身飞往神户。

和她交往前，我只听说过1995年的阪神-淡路大地震和驰名的神户牛肉。经过两个三百六十五天的朝夕相处，我竟不知不觉地被她的平凡深深吸引。美国的专业摄影师琼斯曾说过：“当你爱上世界的那一刻，那种激情能让你把一切平凡的看得非凡、让你发挥无限的创造灵感。”她,虽然不能与整个世界相提并论，但是却是陪伴我见证了真、善、美的好伴侣。

我沉浸在两个四季的平凡中，开始爱上生活中最平凡不过的细节。骑脚车上下班、来回体育馆上瑜伽课、烹饪、学做面包、自修学习日语、做家务。在想念新加坡的当儿，我也细细咀嚼异地的生活、慢慢品尝其中的美。

“ 其实录取你时，我有点担心你的性格内向，会不适合教书。”
“ 那现在呢？”
“ 我庆幸自己没有以貌取人。”
我想，ボス在面试的短短半小时内，要从言行举止中判断对方是否能被三岁儿童至七十岁乐龄人士接受，确实也不是件容易的差事。我也庆幸自己没被淘汰。

若不是因为这份工作，我不会注意到她的精神支柱、她的市民、她的内在美。

经历了95年的大地震，仅仅五年后，她又奇迹般从废墟中站了来。这正是市民坚韧的生存意志与团结精神的证据。

ボス说，地震后他曾经想过结束学校，但在学生的游说下，他打消了这个念头。良かったね！
我在2000年开始在神户教书。当时，有一名年近六十的学生サブロ遇了车祸。昏迷了一个月后，他奇迹般的醒来时。左半身瘫痪使他无法像从前一样行动自如。他得放弃网球、爬山、上英语会话课……

2001年在回新之前，印象中的他少了点儿风趣、多了份消极。
当我在2003年回返神户教学时，他再度回到学校上课。看着他慢慢一拐一拐地上下楼梯，看着他在班上鬼马地捉弄其他同学，我知道他没有选择放弃生命。
除了サブロ,还有很多很多学生的生活点滴也带给了我太多太多的感动。就像市民的团结重建了她一样，学生的故事也滋润了我心灵的成长。

我真的喜欢她不造作的美、不炫耀的美。

依山面海的她，无论是黑夜白昼，都那么地迷人。夜晚的海港，让人一睹她婀娜多姿的一面。一眼望去，神户海洋博物馆既像巨人在海边晒个白色大鱼网，也像大海里汹涌的浪涛。旁边的神户港塔像是一个在等待着什么似的的红衣女子。远远的山上亮起了绿色的锚。那是神户市的徽章。我总忍不住朝它多看几眼，试图重温曾经在那儿眺望这个城市的感动。

我喜欢爬山。在大自然中与她相拥，让我忘记疲惫。有村さん是爬山老手，也是我的好伙伴。那年夏天，我们和リサちゃん、ブリッジ君在走了接近6个小时后，终于站在须磨阿尔卑斯山（須磨アルプス）上的骄傲，我会永远记得。

或许，今天的神户已不再被解释为“神圣的门户”了。但她的的确确敞开了我心中那扇门。

恋爱的感觉，真好。

The Hours

2005-01-30T07:31:00.000-08:00

曹先生和孙小姐都是我喜欢的“工作伙伴”。

曹先生：我昨晚去看了一部电影。
孙小姐：一个人？
曹先生：跟我老婆啦。
孙小姐：Orh...有些人喜欢一个人看电影嘛！I don't do it lah.

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有些人一个人看电影，纯粹因为他喜欢看电影。
其实一个人看电影并不孤单。（^ ^)
谢谢你们，让我想起曾经一个人看过的这部电影。

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Richard: Is my work going to live? I can't go through it, Clarissa.
Clarissa: Why do you say that?
Richard: I can't.
Clarissa: Why?
Richard: Because I wanted to be a writer, that's all.
Clarissa: ....
Richard: I wanted to write about it all.
Everything that's happening in a moment.
The way those flowers looked when you carried them in your arms --
this towel, how it smells, how it feels --
this thread --
all our feelings, yours and mine.
The history of who we once were.
Everything that's in the world.
Everything mixed up.
Like it's all mixed up now.
And I failed. I failed.
Whatever you start with, it ends up so much less.

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Richard就是那种听得见花开的声音的人吧！
他最终跳楼死了，因为病魔的折腾让他活得很辛苦。
这段台词，是我在「めぐりあう時間たち」日英对照剧本中找到的。

郯子狂想曲

2005-01-30T06:01:00.000-08:00

我研究它们的习性，考察它们出没的路径，
了解他们的社会关系，掌握它们的一举一动。

然后细心彩绘鹿皮，装上雄壮的鹿角，
并练习鹿的跳跃，
最后我终于伪装成一只鹿。

我小心翼翼的接近，眼看就要成功了，
但突然忘记，这么做
我究竟是为了什么？

几米《在我心中每天开出一朵花》-- 究竟

SOS

2005-01-29T14:16:00.000-08:00

救生圈甲：I've responsibilities but no authority.

救生圈乙：I'm not sure how much authority we have.
I like to see it as our personal locus of
control. We all swim in our repective loci,
shouting words of encouragement across when
we spot one of our kind tired of staying
afloat. がんばれ！

お帰り！

2005-01-27T07:27:00.000-08:00

Following My Heart Home

It was the first time I sprang a surprise visit back “home”. I was thinking of where to go after six months of studies. Somehow, I followed my heart back to Kobe. I was mistaken for a ghost when a student’s mother saw me. Carise and Rita probably thought they were in Singapore when they saw me sitting in the office. It was a luxury to welcome students and bid them farewell while playing scrabble with boss in the office. Thanks to the planning of Boss and the teachers, I enjoyed myself tremendously at the Christmas Party. I apologize for making you all worried when I lost my voice after the party. It really didn’t matter, because I could still see and hug all of you. Thank you for lighting me up with the Temasek spirit – your passion and perseverance in learning English will inspire me to make the best out of 2005!

心に従い、帰ってきた（チャンちゃんのバージョン）

初めて誰にも知らせずに家に帰ってきました。六ヶ月の学期が終わった際、どこに行こうかなと考えていました。なんとなく心に従って、神戸に帰ってきました。事務所に入った時、ある生徒のお母さんにお化けとして間違えられてしまいました。キャリスもリタも二階の事務所に座っていたイーフェイを見た瞬間、確かにシンガポールの空間に入ってしまったかという勘違いがあったかもしれません。

毎日、ボスとスクラブルを遊びながら生徒達と挨拶することができて自分でも本当に幸せだと感じました。ボスと先生達のおかげで、クリスマスパーティをたっぷり楽しんできました。その後、声も出てこなくなったほど風邪を引いてしまい、皆さんに心配を掛けて本当にごめんなさい。幸いに皆さんと会ったり、抱いたりすることができたので、そんなにひどくありませんでした。

テマセックの精神に照させてくれて有難うございました。皆さんが英語に対するパッションや意志に励まされたので、きっと２００５年の毎日を楽しみに、最善を尽せるように頑張っていきたいと思います。

私の心に従って...神戸に（ボスのバージョン）

私にとって初めてのことですが、誰にも知らせず“故郷”神戸に
帰ってきました。六ヶ月間の研修が終わった後、どこへ行こうかと考
えていました。そして、なぜか、私は自分の心に従って神戸に帰って
きました。

私を見た生徒のお母さんに、私はお化けと間違えられました。リタ
とキャリスは事務所に座っている私を見て、シンガポールにいるのではと
勘違いしたかも知れません。

事務所でボスとスクラブルをしながら生徒達と挨拶を交わすことがで
きたのは、とても贅沢なことでした。ボスと先生達の計らいで、クリスマス・
パーティーをとても楽しむことができました。パーティーの後、風邪で声が
でなくなり、皆さんに心配を掛けたことをお詫びします。でも、声が出なく
ても大丈夫でした。皆さんを見たり、ハグすることができましたので。

テマセックの精神に照らしてもらいありがとう。生徒の皆さんの英語を
学ぶ情熱と根気強さに励まされた私は、２００５年に最善を尽くせるよう
頑張ります。

没大没小

2005-01-23T16:30:00.000-08:00

最近和母亲共处的机会多了。
也许是因为我变得更有耐性了，
也许是最近让她心烦的事多了。

她说今年不准提她的生日，更不许庆祝她的生日。
我送了她一张卡片，声明“这不是生日卡。”
我把它叫做“鼓励卡”。上面写了The Serenity Prayer.

God，grant me the serenity to accept
the things I cannot change,
courage to change the things I can,
wisdom to know the difference.

--Reinhold Niebuhr

最近我们一起上了几个堂Raja Yoga的静坐课。
她总分不清哪些是她能改变的，哪些是她应该听天由命的。
我被她问得也不知所措，因为这种判断因人而异。

我无法给她一个方程式，但也不忍心眼睁睁看着她继续钻牛角尖。

希望她能慢慢看The Serenity Prayer,悟出其中的道理。

瞳を閉じる

2005-01-21T05:29:00.000-08:00

这是平井堅为电影「世界の中心で、愛を叫ぶ」演唱的主题曲。

基兄和学妹的网页上都写上了它的歌词。
其中有一句：“君の抜け殻が横にいる”
凑巧的是，基兄和伟哥不约而同地在同一个讲堂问了我“抜け殻”是什么。

CASIO XD-R7300電子辞書对“抜け殻”的中文翻译是：
一、蜕下来的空壳
二、失神发呆的人。

基兄的翻译是：失魂落魄。（三？）

故事中的女主角患上不治之症，最终去世了。
究竟歌词中写男主角醒来看到的是一、二或三呢？
综合性地说全都是，あいまい的答案最完美。

记得我曾问过ボス世界的中心到底在哪儿。
それ質問に対して、ボスは自分の心のほうを指差していました。
そこしかないと思わない？

又、飛ぶ。

2005-01-16T10:05:00.000-08:00

'Come to the edge.'
'We can't. We are afraid.'

'Come to the edge.'
'We can't. We will fall.'

'Come to the edge.'
And they came

And he pushed them
And they flew.

~Apollinaire

焦点を恐れから自分の信仰に移してみたら、どこからかわからないけど、
不思議な力を得ることができます。もっとその力に集中すればするほど、
恐れも忘れてしまうようになる。

一双鞋

2005-01-16T01:50:00.000-08:00

你或许不知道
在讲堂中
你的热忱
治疗了六十个紧绷着的小脑袋

你的投入
我们都看见了

余光中的《江湖上》中“一双鞋能踏几条街”，
让我联想到另外四双鞋：

1. 陈珊妮的《找一双鞋》、
2. Children of Heaven 中的那双鞋、
3. Nobody Knows 中由希ちゃん那双可爱的拖鞋、
4. Wizard of Oz 中Dorothy那双鞋。

***********************************************
《找一双鞋》

我们错过了情人节
我们错过了愚人节
给你的信没有回
电话响好久没有人接

我们错过了儿童节
我们错过了青年节
我过生日你在纽约
你过生日我在台北

我们错过了感恩节
错过了难得的餐点
我们的距离越来越远
已经忘了要互相感谢

我们错过了耶诞节
我们错过了新年
我们又冷落彼此一年
一年错过一年

我决定穿那件直筒牛仔裤
配上一件红色的衣服
在距离三公尺的位置
向你打招呼

我不敢和你见面
我不敢和你见面
找不到合适的鞋
我不敢和你见面

黑色

2005-01-16T01:42:00.000-08:00

你一身黑色的打扮
黑色、酷吗？

暗暗地，我触摸到
你的悲伤

你一如往昔的黑色打扮
黑色、苦吗？

默默地，我盼望着
你会坚强

But it goes against the way I am....

2005-01-16T01:23:00.000-08:00

中学生涯中最爱的一首hymn. Thank You Lord.

And I Thank You Lord
For the trials that come my way
In that way I can grow each day
As I let You lead

And I thank You Lord
For the patience those trials bring
In the process of growing
I can learn to care

But it goes against the way I am
To put my human nature down
And let the Spirit take control of all I do
'Cos when those trials come
my human nature shouts the things to do
And God's soft prompting can be easily ignored

But I thank You Lord
With each trial I feel inside
That You're there to help, lead and guide
my way from wrong

'Cos You promised Lord
That with every testing
That Your way of escaping is easier to bear

Yes, I thank You Lord
For the victory that growing brings
In surrender of everything
Life is so worthwhile
And I thank You Lord
That when everything's put in place
Out in front I can see Your face
And it's there You belong

ほっとした！

2005-01-16T00:30:00.000-08:00

不如意的事折腾了三周，终于有转机了。
这种如释重负的感觉很不可思议。

短短的时间内，从不知所措到听天由命，再由听天由命演变到雨过天晴。

我会好好珍惜这堂课。

アビゲルちゃんとグレゴリ君の話

2005-01-09T08:15:00.000-08:00

Once upon a time there was a woman named Abigail who was in love with a man named Gregory. Gregory lived on the shore of a river. Abigail lived on the opposite shore of the river. The river which separated the two lovers was teeming with man-eating alligators. Abigail wanted to cross the river to be with Gregory. Unfortunately, the bridge had been washed out and was not to be repaired for at least six months - too long for lovers to wait. So she went to ask Sinbad, the river boat captain, to take her across. He said he would be glad to help if she would consent to spending the night with him having sex. She promptly refused and went to a good friend named Ivan to explain her plight. Ivan did not want to be involved at all in the situation.

After some thought, Abigail felt her only alternative was to accept Sinbad's offer. After a satisfying night of making love, Sinbad fulfilled his promise to Abigail and delivered her into the arms of Gregory.

When she told Gregory about her plight in order to cross the river, Gregory cast her aside with disdain. Heartsick and dejected, Abigail turned to Slug with her tale of woe. Slug, feeling compassion for Abigail, sought out Gregory and beat in order to teach him a lesson. As the Texas sun sets on the horizon, we hear Abigail laughing at Gregory, overjoyed at the sight of Gregory getting his due.

Rank the characters in this story (Abigail, Gregory, Sinbad, Ivan, and Slug) starting with the most offensive to the least offensive.

Food for Thought

2005-01-08T07:38:00.000-08:00

A young man was at the end of his rope, seeing no way out, he dropped to
his knees in prayer "Lord, I can't go on," he said. "I have too heavy a cross
to bear."

The Lord replied, "My son, if you can't bear its weight, just place your cross inside this room.

Then, open that other door and pick out any cross you wish."

The man was filled with relief and said, "Thank you Lord," and he did as he was told.

Upon entering the other room, he saw many crosses; some so large the tops were not visible. Then, he spotted a tiny cross leaning against a far wall.

"I'd like that one, Lord," he whispered. The Lord replied, "My son, that is the cross you just brought in."

When life's problems seem overwhelming, it helps to look around and see
what other people are coping with. You may consider yourself far more fortunate than you imagined.

YOUR CROSS

Whatever your cross
Whatever your pain
There will always be sunshine
After the rain
Perhaps you may stumble
Perhaps even fall
But God's always there
To help you through it all

SHU先生がくれたアドバイス：いつもその子をすぐに助けてあげることがいいかどうか考えてみてください。秘密をいつまで守ることができるとおもう？周りの方に誰かに知らせる必要があることは加減しないといけません。

津波

2005-01-08T07:02:00.000-08:00

“Mother Earth is alive. She breathes. Parts of her are always being born. Parts of her die, everyday, every moment. She moves. She shakes. Recently, Her skin cracked. Her big waters moved.

We humans love life. We especially love other humans. When humans die, big waters flow from our eyes.

Mother Earth produces life. When we are hungry, we eat this life. Last week, She was hungry. Her big waters swept the earth and took life into her stomach. Much human life was eaten. Life eats life. Big waters flow from our eyes.”

By Joseph Britton

PS. Thanks for sharing!

Change

2005-01-05T19:10:00.000-08:00

I dialed a wrong number and got the following recording: "I am not available right now, but I thank you for caring enough to call. I am making some changes in my life. Please leave a message after the beep. If I do not return your call, you are one of the changes."

by Antonio Curtis

Acceptance

2005-01-05T03:10:00.000-08:00

To accept one's past--one's history--is not the same thing as drowning in it; it is learning how to use it.

James Baldwin (1924-1987)

I'm Not Scrooge...I'm Just Broke

2004-12-29T16:51:00.000-08:00

It's said that you can never have too many friends, but Christmas was just a week away and I had five people left to shop for on my Christmas list and only three dollars to my name. How do you tell your mother, brother and three friends that you can only spend sixty cents on each of them?

"Let's set a price limit on our gifts this year," I suggested to my best friend, Joanie.

"That's a good idea," Joanie agreed. "How about nothing over five dollars?"

"How about nothing over sixty cents?" I felt like the biggest cheapskate in the world.

"I guess this is where I'm supposed to say it's not the gift, it's the thought that counts," Joanie smiled. "But don't blame me if all you get is a stick of gum!"

It is almost impossible to buy anything for under sixty cents, so it was really going to have to be very small gifts with very big thoughts. I'd never spent so much time or effort trying to come up with the right gift for the right person.

Finally, Christmas day arrived, and I was worried how people would feel about my "cheap" gifts.

I gave my mother a scented candle with a note that said, "You are the brightest light in my life." She almost cried when she read the note.

I gave my brother a wooden ruler. On the back of it I'd painted, "No brother in the world could measure up to you." He gave me a bag of sugar and had written on it, "You're sweet." He'd never said anything like that to me before.

For Joanie, I painted an old pair of shoes gold and stuck dried flowers in them with a note that said, "No one could ever fill your shoes." She gave me a feather and a Band-Aid. She said I always tickled her funny bone and made her laugh until her sides ached.

To my other two friends, I gave one a paper fan and wrote on it, "I'm your biggest fan." To the other, I gave a calculator that cost one dollar and I painted a message on the back, "You can always count on me." They gave me a rusty horseshoe for luck and a bundle of sticks tied with a red ribbon because "friends stick together."

I don't remember all the other gifts that I got from people last Christmas, but I remember every one of the "cheap" gifts.

My brother thinks I'm sweet. My mother knows she is the most important person in my life. Joanie thinks I'm funny and I make her laugh, which is important because her dad moved away last year and she misses him and is sad sometimes.

I was worried I wouldn't have enough money for Christmas gifts, but I gave gifts to five people and still had twenty cents left over. We all still talk about our "cheap" gifts and how much fun it was to come up with a gift that cost pennies but told someone how we really felt about them. On my bookshelf, I still have a bag of sugar, a feather, a horseshoe and a bundle of sticks...and they are priceless.

By Storm Stafford

足跡

2004-12-28T14:10:00.000-08:00

ある夜　　
私は夢を見た
神様と二人並んで　　
私は砂浜を歩いていた

砂の上に　　
二組の足跡が見えていた
一つは神様の　　
そして一つは私のだった

しかし　　
最後に
私が振り返って見た時
ところどころで足跡一組だけしか
見えなかった

「私の愛する子供よ
　私は決しておまえのそばを離れた
　ことはない
　お前がもっとも苦しんでいた時
　砂の上に一組の足跡しかなかったのは
　私がお前を抱いていたからなんだよ」

M.パワ－ズ

驚いた

2004-12-28T13:40:00.000-08:00

子供がお母さんの愛に囲まれていることは幸せなことです。

倫ちゃんは何回も何回も同じ質問をするのに、陽子は全然イライラせず、
根気よく、何回も何回も同じ返事を繰り返します。

倫：　ママ、ママ！イーフェイはボスに風邪をうつされたの?
陽子：そうよ。ボスは風邪を「どうぞ」イーフェイにうつした。
　　　イーフェイは風邪を「どうも」ボスからもらった。
倫：　ママ、ママ！ボスは風邪を「どうぞ」イーフェイにうつしたの？
陽子：うん。
倫:　　イーフェイは「どうも」風邪をもらったの？
陽子:　うん。

3分後...

倫：ママ、ママ！何でイーフェイは風邪を引いたの？

5分後...

倫：ママ、ママ！イーフェイは風邪を引いたね。何で？

2分後...

倫：ママ、ママ！ボスは誰？

忐忑•等待

2004-12-01T22:46:00.000-08:00

2003年3月20日（新加坡）

小星依然记得，打开他的电邮时，自己是屏住呼吸的。
"Hi. It's been a while. I guess it's taken me that
long to feel comfortable talking again."
他们已经分手四年了。这是他第一次发出电邮。
阿Moon在半年前飞往西雅图。
四年的博士课程。
西雅图让小星想起了Tom Hanks和Meg Ryan的Sleepless in Seattle.

2003年4月20日（西雅图）

一个月后，小星和她的黄色背包一同飞去西雅图。
“为什么来找我？”
阿Moon仍然和以前一样，说话从不拐弯抹角。
小星一如往昔，耸了耸肩，笑而不语。

小星这四年来的心结在西雅图解开了。
阿Moon每天有很多readings；小星虽然说不上千里迢迢飞来的
理由，但是陪阿Moon看书也乐在其中。

2003年7月14日（富士山）

他们和五个朋友相约去爬山。天不作美，结果得放弃登上
山顶。那天晚上，他们在山上的小屋歇脚。大伙儿躺成一排,因隔天
一大早得下山，不得不逼自己闭上眼睛休息。

被单下，小星感觉到阿Moon伸过来的手。
就这样，他们手牵着手，睡着了。

2003年圣诞

小星常常打长途电话、寄卡片给阿Moon。她老早计划要给他一个
惊喜：飞去西雅图陪他过圣诞。

不料，在启程的一星期前，阿Moon竟透露自己喜欢上一位女同学。
小星终于明白了，原来一直以来都是自己一厢情愿的在等待。

“那很好啊！你应该把握这个学校假期，和喜欢的人一起过圣诞。”

阿Moon后来连续几天打给小星。原来，他向另一个她表白了，但扑了
场空。

“不如你来西雅图过圣诞好吗？”

“你如果真的喜欢她，应该多给她点时间。怎么这么轻易就放弃？”

“那你呢？你为什么又那么轻易放弃？”

小星无言以对。但她已经在努力调整自己。她明白覆水难收，自己只能
做阿Moon的普通朋友。

2004年圣诞

阿Moon收到个邮包。他一眼就认出了小星的笔迹。

一个星期前，小星问他想要什么圣诞礼物。

"Would you hand deliver it to Seattle?"

"..."

小星愣了一下，接着哈哈哈地。她不晓得阿Moon是否是在开玩笑。一笑
置之，算是替自己解围吧！

阿Moon知道小星现在正在尼泊尔背包旅行。她说过这次旅行算是她2004
年的梦想，所以非去不可。

他迫不及待地打开邮包。

里头是一条串了两枚戒指的项链。

Starry Starry Night

2004-11-30T23:00:00.000-08:00

今日、前の同僚となんじゃもんじゃに行ってきました。
レストランは前よりも明るかったです。雰囲気もちょっと変わったらしい。
九月十三日に一緒に行ったもんね。その時、本当に楽しかったです。

いつの間にか、週一回二人で晩御飯を食べに行くことになりました。偶然にも、
二人とも料理を作るのが大好きなので、いつも食べた後、スパーでぶらぶらしました。

お互いに約束しましたね。試験の後、一緒にパン作りのクラスに入ること...

ごめんね。結局、逃げちゃった。
恋をする勇気がないので、そのまま友達として付き合ったほうがいいと思う。

ｍ（－－）ｍ

阿 Moon

2004-11-30T13:48:00.000-08:00

“走，我们跟着月亮回家。”
我点了点头。

原来，回家的心情是不容易收拾的。
可能因为想你的关系吧。

She teased me. Said that she spent some time checking if
the moon was blue, cos she's hardly heard me miss anyone.

あのね、もし良かったら、また今度食べに行きませんか?
映画を見に行ってもいいし...

誰でしょう？

2004-11-26T01:22:00.000-08:00

英雄

2004-11-21T09:10:00.000-08:00

好久好久好久没参加烧烤会了。
可惜当天因为喉咙痛，所以没机会大饱口福。

“小强”可能想帮忙吃了我那份，所以在我们快散人时姗姗来迟。它的到来，让我领悟了“不鸣则已，一鸣惊人”原来也能套在“小天后”身上用。（“小天后”的绰号是因某某人觉得她长得很像孙XX。）“小天后”平时在班上滔滔不绝，当天玩游戏时自然也是她的声音称霸。我一向以为她天不怕，地不怕，谁知道“小强”一出场，她的尖叫声便没停止过。接着是上演了英雄救美的片段。挺身而出的英雄自然是“小天后”的男朋友。（其实到头来，全场人都觉得“小强”是因听力尽废，功力受挫而逃之夭夭的。）

你怕“小强”吗?
告诉你一个秘密：当时我身旁的4条“好汉”（冒了“好”多冷“汗”的男人）
一动也不动，一声也没吭。

从那天起，他们都成为了我心目中“无声胜有声”的英雄。

二零四六

2004-11-21T01:25:00.000-08:00

There is a need in all of us to have a place to hide or store certain memories, thoughts, impulses, hopes and dreams," says Wong Kar-wai. "These are the parts of our lives that we can't resolve or act upon, but at the time, we are afraid to jettison them. For some, this is a physical place; for others, it is a mental space, and for a few it is neither."

终于在前晚看了二零四六。
很欣赏电影里每个角色的一举手，一投足。
导演拍得用心，观众自然也看得投入。
爱情电影千篇一律，王家卫对爱情的诠释却很独特、很浪漫。

最喜欢以下的两段：

「僕といっしょに行きませんか？」
もし向こうから返事が来なかったら、理由が相手の反応が遅いでもないし、興味がないでもないし、ただもう気に入る人がいるのです。

她用很婉转的方式拒绝了我。
我对她说：“如果有一天你终于放得下你的过去，回来找我。”
原来这番话是对我自己说的。

Fear

2004-11-11T13:40:00.000-08:00

差出人 : XXX
送信日時 : 2004年11月11日 12:21:05
宛先 : matatobu@hotmail.com

"Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us. It is not just in some; it is in everyone. And, as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our fear, our presence automatically liberates others. "

Marianne Williamson from her book "A Return to Love"

******************************************************************************

as i grow older, i don't know why, but i feel the impetus to be more open and honest abt my feelings w even more urgency perhaps this may be construed as naivety and unrealistic so be it because i honestly don't wish to deny myself, of my feelings and what nots i am, in a way, trying to pursue my own happiness
this reminds me of a little girl i read in a book who, after observing the adults around her, asked whether our conduct are driven by the impetus to be safe, or saved
i don't know if it's coz i've seen too little of the world and experienced too minute of what life has to offer to be well.. to embrace a healthy enough a dose of cynicism and sceptism to so called protect myself.
sometimes i think it's really because i've seen and experienced bits of how low humans can get- how callous, how utterly beastly even they people you know can be
wch is perhaps why i simply cling onto whatever faith and hope i can find towards life- for letting go wld merely throw me into an abyss of despair and meaningless rage when my energies can be better spent on other endeavours
perhaps others may find this being unrealistic and bordering on dogmatism- but there's nothing else i know to be than this

XXX

なるほど

2004-11-09T14:40:00.000-08:00

“很多日本人爱爬山。他们说：理由很简单，因为有山。
我爱拉小提琴，因为空气里有美妙的音符。希望你会喜欢我的演奏。”
这是我一位老朋友的女儿在演奏会上的致词。替她翻成英语的时候，教我感动了好一会儿。

"Go into yourself. Find out the reason that commands you to write; see whether it has spread its roots into the very depths of your heart; confess to yourself whether you would have to die if you were forbidden to write. This most of all: ask yourself in the most silent hour of your night: must I write? Dig into yourself for a deep answer. And if this answer rings out in assent, if you meet this solemn question with a strong, simple "I must," then build your life in accordance with this necessity; your while life, even into its humblest and most indifferent hour, must become a sign and witness to this impulse. Then come close to Nature. Then, as if no one had ever tried before, try to say what you see and feel and love and lose. Don't write love poems; avoid those forms that are too facile and ordinary: they are the hardest to work with, and it takes great, fully ripened power to create something individual where good, even glorious, traditions exist in abundance. So rescue yourself from these general themes and write about what your everyday life offers you; describe your sorrows and desires, the thoughts that pass through your mind and your belief in some kind of beauty - describe all these with heartfelt, silent, humble sincerity and, when you express yourself, use the Things around you, the images from your dreams, and the objects that you remember. If your everyday life seems poor, don't blame it; blame yourself; admit to yourself that you are not enough of a poet to call forth its riches; because for the creator there is not poverty and no poor, indifferent place. And even if you found yourself in some prison, whose walls let in none of the world's sounds - wouldn't you still have your childhood, that jewel beyond all price, that treasure house of memories?"

http://www.sfgoth.com/~immanis/rilke/letter1.html

Ranier Maria Rilke
Letters To A Young Poet
Stephen Mitchell Translation

猫の物語

2004-11-04T01:38:00.000-08:00

ある友達の紹介で、この歌を初めて聞きました。
人間よりもペットのほうが彼氏か彼女として付き合ったほうがいいって。

「爱与诚」

其实自己一个更开心只等你讲
其实大家早已嫌大家却扮忙
恨有多一点碰撞仍然无聊事干不敢打搅对方
要是你愿意诚实讲一趟彼此都起码觉得释放

不要哭我也忍得了这些年来的委曲
没法真心爱下去只好真心真意的结束

* 别再做情人做只猫做只狗不做情人
做只宠物至少可爱迷人和你不瞅不睬
最终只会成为敌人 (和你相交不浅无谓明日会被你憎)
沦为旧朋友是否又称心没有心只像闲人若有空
难道有空可接吻注定似过路人陌生你怎么手震
(这预告发自虔诚内心) *

长期被迫恋爱也真比失恋更惨
长期扮演若无其事般更困难
是我专登反应慢明明为时甚晚牌一早该要摊
再像我伴侣仍望多一眼一生都将会记得今晚

Repeat *

对不起自动分手错愕的你怕会伤感
盲目的我现在也可转台来贺你新生

Repeat *

Merci beaucoup

2004-11-01T05:58:00.000-08:00

My dear, my friend,

I've *just* completed my final individual report.All by *myself*... I think you'll understand how I feel. I wouldn't have been able to do it, if not for the few of you who saw me through my thesis in April 1999. Merci beaucoup!

*Flap flap*

Love,
me

你明白我在说什么吗？

2004-10-30T08:41:00.000-07:00

さっき、「Ｙｅｓｔｅｒｄａｙ　Ｏｎｃｅ　Ｍｏｒｅ」という映画を見てきました。
本当は「２０４６」を見たかったけど...まあ～もし月曜日に時間があれば
一人で見に行くかもしれません。ストレス解消するように...

今晩の映画はチャンちゃんのタイプの映画じゃないけど、友達が見たかったので、
それにしました。夫と妻のストリーでした。二人とも盗むことが大好きです。

这么爱偷也罢了，连姓也毫不遮掩地叫“盗”字。我也不客气了，就称他们做贼公、贼婆吧！贼公知道自己患上绝症之后，不想贼婆独自过下半辈子，便以“分赃不均”为借口提出离婚。离婚之后，贼婆为了一条“传家之宝”接受了富家子的求婚。贼公看穿了这一点，便“重出江湖”，买通高手偷这条项链。

It was hilarious seeing how much the duo had in common. Stealing was
no different from breathing to them. Forget about the school of thought
which claims opposites attract. No prizes for guessing whom they loved
most in their lives.

He died, leaving his riches with her.
She lived, remembering his love for her.
很简单的誓言：只要你为首饰嫁人，我就会为你再偷一次。

偷首饰的故事上演了两遍。第三条“传家之宝”没机会亮相，为什么呢？
A. 贼公人死了。
B. 贼婆“心”死了。
C. 导演不想抄袭《英雄》的“一而再，再而三”。
D. 看戏何必想这么多？无聊！懒得理你。
(提示：这四道选择题长短不一样，不是一个好题目。)

もしかしたら、正解はA+B+C+D=E かもしれません。
(- -#)

家に逃げたほうがいい

2004-10-23T20:18:00.000-07:00

如果你宿舍的同房在你测验前夕边听歌边大展歌喉，你会怎么做？
我会请她把声量调小，因为我需要温习功课。

What if she's playing ethnic music, which isn't exactly your cup of tea?
I'd put on my earphones.

あのね、もしあの子は復習する時に大きな声で朗読すれば、
どうしたらいいですか？
............

Baby Faith

2004-10-23T13:53:00.000-07:00

中学时的死党上个星期生了个女宝宝。
样子很甜美。
我还没亲眼见着Baby Faith，只是看到她的相片。
This is an excerpt from Love Sonnet XVII,
dedicated to 东西 and Faith.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,
I love you simply, without problems or pride:
I love you in this way because I don't know any other way of loving

but this, in which there is no I or you,
so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand,
so intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes that close.

-- Pablo Neruda

P.S. 看过《Patch Adams》吗？这就是那首深情的诗。

2046

2004-10-20T06:05:00.000-07:00

看了以下的影评，让我想起自己在看《卧虎藏龙》时笑得前俯后仰的样子。《十面埋伏》看到一半，坐在身旁的朋友竟发了个sms给我：死也这么多pattern的meh?

还是吴庆康一言惊醒梦中人，原来笨的是看的人，不是制作群。
难过（；；）

但是不看不晓得自己笨。所以我还是会去看《2046》，侮辱自己一下。

吴庆康

记忆中从来没有试过看电影看到一半，实在忍无可忍，最终按捺不住，带着一头雾水离开电影院，然后责怪自己为何没有高超的领悟力，来欣赏这样超凡的动态油画，以致无法和其他专业影评人平起平坐，懊恼不已。

记忆中我甚少写影评，但这次一定要写《2046》这部电影，因为带给我的震撼太大，在戏院里就已经构思要怎样下笔。

这是我第一次那么用心评论一部电影，因为从中发现自己的水准有问题，请大家仔细读，可以的话请四处转载，最好转载到王家卫导演那里，请他为我解答疑题。

风格

电影拍得像抽象派艺术，融合了导演王家卫过去多部电影的特色，同样的固定地点，同样高深莫测的对白，同样的服装，同样的年代，几乎同样的演员，听说故事还从以前多部影片中延续，基本上可以说是“王片大汇演”。

其中最经典的王式画面，即两个主角坐在车子后座内的画面，从《春光乍泄》到《花样年华》再到《2046》频频出现，从取景到色调到情绪几乎完全一模一样(总是有一个靠在另一个的肩膀上睡觉)，就像是用电脑把同一个画面换上不同的人，看着看着还会时空混淆，几乎错乱。

要多年来不进不退，长久保持始终一贯的风格不是易事，王家卫却做到了。

镜头

影片镜头慢得令人吃惊。王菲和木村拓哉无言对望就花了好几分钟，梁朝伟偷望门洞口也望了几分钟，而且还重复了多次。看见王菲也是无言吸一口烟久久不动，因为眼睛有点累于是睡了过去，没想到睡醒了王菲还在吸同样一口烟，动作几乎没有变到，导演和演员同样耐力惊人。还有很多其他演员的类似慢镜头演出，大家都在用眼睛演戏，要不然就是一些朦朦胧胧经过的手啦脚啦之类的镜头，不是很看得明白，但我猜想这就是艺术。

阵容

这部电影简直是奇迹，集合了那么多重量级的演员，拍了那么多年，演员神情居然衔接得下去，实在难得。喜欢梁朝伟在王家卫电影中永远一样的造型，喜欢张震几乎不必说话的角色，还有喜欢章子怡的手和脚的精湛演出，当然最喜欢木村拓哉英俊的脸。最“惊悚”的是张曼玉的特别演出，听说只闪过十几秒，还没搞清楚她到底有没有出现就不见了(应该是刚好在闭目养神囤积精力努力再看下去)，似真似假虚虚实实，有点吓人。

内容

我起初以为这是科幻片，满心欢喜去看戏(我最爱科幻片了)，起初确实有科幻的画面，但没隔多久又变成60年代的戏，时空穿越来来去去内容多变，复杂层次非一般电影做得到。后来知道那是电影中“东方酒店”的一个房间号码(章子怡住的)，同时也是梁朝伟在电影中的创作故事的名称和年代(听说还与之前的电影有关连)。于是尝试将之与刚开始木村拓哉说的2046串联——转瞬间依然迷迷糊糊，嗯，哗！噢！喔I see。

主题

高深莫测得像卖膏药布，如果这是考试题，我肯定不及格，对不起我还在研究其主题，给我多一点时间please。

思想

电影的中心思想好像就是说一场(抑或多场)男欢女爱。基本上这样的中心思想可以用1分钟就交代完毕，也可以用一个小时都演不完。王家卫肯定选择了后者。我相信导演必定有一些别于《花样年华》的思想情绪要表达，但我领悟力不强，看了一个多小时后还是不能大彻大悟。原本想问友人，却发现原来他无法忍受自己怎样都看不懂的愚蠢，居然睡了。

艺术

艺术水平高超，迷离、抽象、疑惑、诱惑、性感、感性，配上非常动听的音乐，结合成一幅无价的艺术品。智质较差如我者无法感受，有点像那种你怎么看都不明白，但有人可以花几十万元买下一幅抽象画一样。但对喜欢第七第八第九艺术的人来说，电影越“深邃”的表达方式，艺术价值越高。

啊，真要恭喜王导演获得一些专业人士这样的赞赏，这么有深度的电影当然可以参加欧洲的电影展，难怪把老外搞到满天星星，猛赞marvellous。

评语

记忆中从来没有试过看电影看到一半，实在忍无可忍，最终按捺不住，带着一头雾水离开电影院，然后责怪自己为何没有高超的领悟力，来欣赏这样超凡的动态油画，以致无法和其他专业影评人平起平坐，懊恼不已。

翻看很多中英专业影评人的报道，全部给电影4到5颗星的极高鉴赏，我不敢例外，朋友问起只敢学着用各种想得出的、似是而非的、不着边际的、说了等于没说的形容词来说电影如何与艺术挂钩，尝试入流。

这是我第一次深切体会到自己对艺术领悟的低水准，非常惭愧，发誓以后再也不敢面对王家卫的电影，不要在戏院里丢脸。

多得王家卫，以那么绝世脱俗的高格调让我上了宝贵的一课，就是绝不随波逐流，人家说的未必合自己心意，自己做的别人也未必满意。看来我实在应该去看看大家都说是烂片的《十面埋伏》，格调比较低的片子，应该比较适合我。

Shhh...

2004-10-18T01:00:00.000-07:00

「子供」

子供が好きです。

なぜでしょう？

子供から学ぶことがあるから。

子供は何も恐れず、新しいことに挑戦できるから。

元気一杯だから。

心が広くて、人をすぐに許すことができるから。

シンプルなことにも感謝の気持ちを持っているから。

「メモリー」

古いものを捨てる時、自分の一部も失ってしまうような気がしますか？

チャンちゃんの答えは：「Ｎｏ」です。

中学を卒業したころから、もうそう思うようになりました。

もらったプレゼントも、見た映画も、聴いた歌も、友達も、そして私が教えた

生徒も、全ては大切な一生の思い出になりました。その思い出は私の心の中に

きちんとしまっているので、誰も盗むことはできません。

「秘密」

子供は、秘密を守ることができると思いますか？

今日聞いた話によると、子供は秘密を守ることができそうです。

小学校で働いている先生が、学校を辞めることにしたので、自分が好か

れているクラスの生徒に先に話しました。

「あのね、皆さん。お願いがあります。先生は学校を辞めることになりました。

まだ辞表を出していないので、このことをしばらく内緒にしていてくれます

か？」

結局、クラスの生徒４０人の誰もがこの約束を破りませんでした。

すごいですね。

Love @ 1st Sight

2004-10-17T03:15:00.000-07:00

I don’t understand you. You don’t understand me.
What else do we have in common?

Ashleigh Brilliant

I liked this quote the very first time I set eyes on it.
It’s witty. I shared it with two male friends. They went, “Duh?”
I sms’d it to a close pal whom I always share my intimate thoughts with. Within split seconds, I nearly fell off my chair when I read her reply. “What are you talking about?”
………..I don’t care. I fell in love with this line all the same. And it made me wonder about who Ashleigh Brilliant is or was, hm…and, I found him! Ok, to be more precise, I found his website.
Go on. Take a peek.
http://www.ashleighbrilliant.com/

Think I'll give his books a try.

天秤ちゃん

君はだれ？

Ericia

精彩

蝋燭サービス

砸 杂 茶

You Bring Out The Worst In Me

Promises to Keep

如果中了彩票头奖

三秒钟

Well said

父の日

子どもの話

年龄

人手短缺または忍受短缺

放风吹，让猫跑

May 10

May 9

May 8

May 7

出尔反尔

May 6

一个惊喜

写一首诗给你

なるほど

May 5

Ang Moh

机场

让我穿好鞋吧！

痛苦

鱼

V. V. True

周记三篇

YYY

XXX

扫兴

格格不入

鱼的困境

HMの告白

プレゼント

リンゴとオレンジ

偽者

垃圾虫

小小世界

小安

小X

快乐吗

酸得好!!!

撒野

是你改的吗？

相处之道

鸡婆

怎么可能

小朋友24.02.05

讽子曰：......

Excuse me, R u my neighbor?

SMS

小朋友 22.02.05

小朋友 21.02.05

不要变老

君たちのおかげで......

懐かしい思い出

Everyday Creativity

観音様

Basket

爱神

The Hours

郯子狂想曲

SOS

お帰り！

没大没小

瞳を閉じる

又、飛ぶ。

一双鞋

黑色

But it goes against the way I am....

ほっとした！

アビゲルちゃんとグレゴリ君の話

Food for Thought

津波

砸杂茶